Moving On

7:12 PM

Last year was rough.

I left my job.
I moved back home with my parents.
I went to doctors numerous times to try to find out what’s wrong with my health.
I received depressing news numerous times from friends.
(I could keep going on and on but I’m not going to bore you.)

All of a sudden I felt like my somewhat put-together life was now a complete mess. I felt like a failure. I didn’t know what to do.

I was instantly comparing my life to those of my friends. Is this normal? I’ve always felt like no matter what I do, I’m never 100% confident in my work. Or maybe that has something to do with my childhood (countless incidents of bullying, being told I’m worthless, etc.; I’ll go more into that another day).

I’m also the type of person that hates doing the same stuff every day, so if there was some way to combine my love for music, blogging, interviewing people, making videos, modeling, etc., that would be the perfect job for me.

So much of what has happened to me over the years, I honestly haven’t been able to open up to most people about it…until last year.

For the longest time, I was ashamed and embarrassed of what I’d let others do to me for so long without standing up for myself. I was mostly afraid of hurting other people’s feelings, yet at the same time, how was I supposed to bring up the kinds of stuff I was faced with to my friends and family because a lot of it wasn’t exactly “normal stuff” that everyone else goes through? That’s why I struggled to figure out what to do with my life for so long…until last September.

One of my mentor friends invited me to go to an event called Encounter. (Encounter is a Christ-centered, relationally-styled experience in Christian community. Through the formation of leadership teams, retreat weekends, & various forms of follow-up, the candidates are given the opportunity to grow in personal faith & to express a corporate faith in witness & service to others.

It was there where I felt God nudging me to go outside my comfort level and create a lifestyle brand based on my blog; which is currently eating up a lot of my time and that’s why I haven’t come on here sooner to tell you guys this exciting news.

At first, I had no idea where to begin.

I began asking a few business-oriented people in town that I look up to how they started their companies. Some of them were kind enough to even become mentors to me. One of them even offered me a part-time job. Everyone I asked gave me positive vibes about it; especially after hearing me telling them some of my story and why I started my blog You’re Not Invisible. Now I just needed to figure out how I was going to finance it.

My grandma, unfortunately, lost her battle with cancer in November. It was kind of a blessing in disguise because she left behind some money for all the grandkids.

With that being said, right now I’m in the process of getting an LLC and setting up an online store that will hopefully be open in the next couple of months or so. I also plan to go back to school in the fall to get a second degree in digital marketing so it will help me later down the road with my business. The name of my company will be the same name as my blog…You’re Not Invisible. I hope that by sharing some of my stories I can help others know they are not alone and invisible. 

If you want a little sneak peek of my testimony, please listen to this interview I did on Voice America with my friend, Niccie Kliegl, on her show entitled Living Within the Sweet Spot:

Just in the last year, I’ve seen God at work in many different ways and it’s amazing the opportunities He’ll give you when you fully trust Him instead of worrying about worldly things. He’s brought me from feeling like a complete failure to being thankful for every little thing He created.

Taking this into account, I’ve decided 2018 is finally the year were I start sharing some of my personal experiences here and officially turn You’re Not Invisible into a lifestyle blog. For the longest time, I’ve wanted to not only do interviews with people but also share about other things I love.

For the last few years, I feel like I’ve been hiding behind a computer screen afraid to tell others what I really feel like. Now’s my time to shine and be 100% authentic with you guys. No more hiding!

That also means I’m going to get out of my comfort zone and be starting a YouTube channel soon. Some of the stuff I plan to include on there are going into details on why I’ve never been on an official date before to doing videos on beauty, fashion, freebies, interviews with people I admire, as well as tell you other personal stories that I haven’t told you before.

I hope that explains a little bit of where I’ve been over the last year. I’ve grown so much in my faith and am thankful to every one of you guys who have supported me along the way. Hopefully, by the time I make my next post on here, my online store will be up. Be on the lookout for that.

Until then, please remember: It may be easy to forget, but feelings matter. Life matters. You matter. You’re Not Invisible.


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